Yesterday I was thinking about those times when you know you are in the middle of God’s will because life can be uncomfortable there. Yes, uncomfortable. Because it’s there that you are often under much attack from the enemy. Satan doesn’t like you there. So with the great blessing and peace of being in God’s will can also come great spiritual battle.
I have been uncomfortable recently. I thought it was because it was from being restless and unsure of where God is leading me. I have been feeling like I’m in a holding pattern that has lasted a really long time. But I realized yesterday I am uncomfortable, not because I’m waiting, because I’m in God’s will for my life right now. The wait is God’s will. And man has there been spiritual warfare that I was blind to seeing until the last few days.
I can across an old letter from my friend Emma today. I need to quote part of it:
“Never underestimate the power of the Holy Spirit and never overestimate your ability to do anything without God. When you fully depend on Him, you truly discover more of the Father’s heart, His great power and His mighty love for you. Why would you do anything apart from Him? Don’t ever underestimate what God can do in your life because your current situation doesn’t look like the promise given to you. Let God be God, wait on Him and watch Him do what He said He would do!”
Encouragement Expeditions is God’s ministry. He called me to create it and give it shape but I only go when and where He calls. Right now He is not calling me to go. And believe me, I have questioned God, even tried to plan a trip without Him. Yet here I sit, uncomfortable, because it is His will. I know that in this moment I need to, “Let God be God, wait on Him and watch Him do what He said He would do!”
You know that saying, “Pride comes before the fall?” I don’t want to fall. I want to be humble. I want to remain upright, walking on the path God has laid before me. I am trying to keep my eyes and heart open to all He is teaching me as I remain still and wait. I know that what I’m learning He will use for His glory in His time.
One last thought. As I was thinking about being uncomfortable I thought of the Pink Floyd song, “Comfortably Numb.” I do not ever want to be in a place in my life as a Christ follower where I become comfortably numb. It’s exactly where the enemy wants me to be. I want to be actively engaged in the battle, uncomfortable as it may be, knowing God has equipped me, gone before me and walks beside me. The glory and the victory are His! Amen.